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I can't remember whether I called him and really have no way of checking. It may be that my daughter may remember, because she was noticing me a great deal during those few days because of her astonishment at my crying so much. She was around all the time, because she wasn't away at school. She was at day school, so she was home. Her bedroom was off mine and I saw her all the time. She was aware of the fact that I was crying all the time and that was so astonishing to her that she noticed me more than a child ordinarily notices its mother. She might remember if I had called up Roosevelt. She knows that I was in a terrible stew.

I dreaded the move and I dreaded the change, but then I always do dread changes. I've always hated change. I'm always sorry to leave anything I do. That dies as soon as I've got my feet on the new ship. I dreaded leaving. I hated to leave what I had in the way of a home and what I had in the way of family responsibility. I feared for my ability to do the right thing by my child, operating from a distance. Somehow or other I wouldn't contemplate putting her in boarding school, which I could have done. I worried about the kind of person I could get as a full time governess who would live in the house with her, and all that sort of thing. Some very substantial new problems were to be introduced into my life. They were very hard to face really. You don't