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way to try to say what she should do--”If she wants to do something crazy, do it, because you're not going to be together much longer.” I kept saying to her, “Can't we get somebody in here to do some of the chores that need to be done?” some of which I was doing and some she still insisted on doing, and she said, “If you love me, don't bring anybody in.”

Wow.

And when I finally--at Jack Rowe's insistence, really--agreed to move her out of the house and take her to Mt. Sinai--and she agreed to go; if she had said she wouldn't go I would not have pursued it--but they were carrying her down the stairs, out to the ambulance and she said, “I don't want to go.” It was just awful. [Pause] I knew it was the best thing for her.

Anyway. [Long pause] I can't live here alone. There's nobody--I'd get a couple to live with me but that wouldn't be any solution. And I guess the reason I haven't done it isn't just because I can't get rid of things, but I just can't bear losing that part of my life.

But she was enormously helpful to me in everything I touched, except--I guess the only thing that stood in the way--and she was a good egg about it, but--the only thing that was really a sore point was the Center for Advanced Studies and my relations with Paul Lazarsfeld, up at Columbia, which was also a part of the Center in a way.

Was that because she didn't respect him, on a personal level, or just--

Yes, she thought his Viennese habits were so antithetical to hers that she said, “You know, I don't have to waste my time putting up with him when there are other people I